juni 6th, 2005
Poison
A black arrow in my heart,
like a poison in my mind.
She enters at night
and tears my dreams apart.
A black arrow in my heart,
like a poison in my mind.
She enters at night
and tears my dreams apart.
Mum is whore,
dad is dick.
Brothers and sisters,
they all make me sick.
I hate them,
hate them all.
God I scream,
please hear my call.
In moments of light,
I see no point in death.
In moments of darkness,
I see no point in life.
But you my love I always see,
always hear and almost feel,
and you are nothing.
Nothing but all to me.
My broken heart,
my eternal sorrow.
My blackned heart,
my pain forever.
My bleeding heart,
my lifelong burden to carry.
What can I do?
I’m lying on the ground.
Felling like i wiegh a million pounds.
With my face bleeding and heart screaming.
The only thing I think of is you.
Trust is for the blinded.
Trust is for the fool.
Trust is for the deluded.
For I have seen the truth,
I trust no one.
Not my father,
not my mother,
not my family
or my friend.
Trust is decieving.
Trust is lying.
I don’t even trust myself.
What is that feeling?
A demon from hell
or an angel from heaven.
Can’t somebody tell.
Where have it gone?
Where have she gone?
The unreachable goal,
this torture road.
Crushing yet easing,
killing yet healing.
This everyday feeling
with a confused meaning.
That killer thought
and her heaven scent
will make me live.
Fill the void with her.
For at least,
The try is better than none.
You are a holy grail,
an angel from the heavens.
You are greater than diamonds and gold,
you are greater than anything i can do.
But greater is also my love for you.
If love was a crime
then I would be a criminal.
If love was art
then you would be mona lisa.
But love is love,
and you are you
and nothing but all to me.